Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Six years changes a lot

There was no war on terrorism going on

I was in fourth grade

It was my sister's fourth birthday.

I watched a plane hit a building on Good Morning America

It weird to think how much we've changed in six years.

It's weird to see how the last five years there have been reminders to wear red white and blue today, but this year, it kinda faded.

Six years later there isn't so much of a mention everywhere.

Nothing in the morning announcements at school.

No church bells going off when the planes hit

After the fifth anniversary, do we all just forget about it?

Does it fall to the back of our memories, only to be brought up again when there is a major anniversary?

Is the patriotism we all had gone?

On August 18th, a day with no significance today, the people of lower Manhattan got a bit of a 9/11 flashback. The Deutsche Bank Building that still stands next to ground zero started on fire. The haze that covered Manhattan those days after 9/11 returned

I remember when I went to NYC in 8th grade, they told us about how at that time, almost 4 years later, they were still finding human remains in that building because that building was flooded with smoke that day and people died inside. They also told us how it couldn't just be torn down, because the toxins would hurt the environment and the people in the area. It was being taken down floor by floor when the fire broke out.

I remember how depressing it was looking at the list of names. I remembered back to 9/11 and how my first thoughts were of Meaghan Clohessy's family and how so many of them lived in NYC. Looking at the list of those who lost thier lives, I realized how close she was to losing memebers of her family.

I remember how depressing it was just standing on the sidewalk. There was a man playing amazing grace on a flute that just made it worse.

So, where is our caring, our love of our country?

Six years later.

There's two wars going on...to "fight threats to our country"

I'm a sophmore in high school, and I understand so much more. I understand that there are a lot of horrible people in the world and everybody you meet can't automatically start out being your best friend.

My sister is 10 now and she still hates when people gasp when she tells them her birthday. She still doesn't totally understand what happened. But she has stopped saying "the planes crashed on my birthday"


We've all grown so much in 6 years. It's weird to look back, but it necessary.

Sometimes we all just need to look back at who we used to be.

Because who we used to be shaped who we are today, for better or worse.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Maybe Life Fucking Sucks

Maybe I should get over it
Maybe I need some tough love
Maybe you shouldn't tell someone that you're going to be somewhere and you go out drinking instead
Maybe a phone call would've been nice
Maybe you should realize you have a problem
MAYBE SOMEONE SHOULD STOP DENYING YOU HAVE A PROBLEM!
Maybe I'm a fucking baby
Maybe I just need someone to be there
Maybe you need some love when you drop another two seconds
Life has too many maybes